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A return to form, helping Gen Alpha with a return to the dunce cap.

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I’m an egotist by nature, pride is definitely my default sin, much like Satan himself. Now you kind of understand why I am the metal guy. Metal as all those same aspects, but significantly different. However, much like NPD it isn’t blind egotism is is healthy egotism. Egotistical says I play guitar well, pride says I’m not Jimi Hendrix. Egomaniacal would make me think i play better than Jimi, I don’t. This priticular interval ledger has always been what drives me. I don’t like to cheat myself because I only hurt myself and if I hurt myself I’m doing myself a disservice. So when cheating at school matters, like K-12 I never did. I still carry this with me to this day especially when learning guitar, there’s absolutely no shortcuts in life however there is efficiency and cheating isn’t that. However post primary education in an adult education environment i decided to try it for once. I’m not proud of it, however because I ended up creating more work for myself than I needed to. The assignment read “to kill a mocking bird” for about the 100th time because I changed schools a lot. So I copied Wikipedia and decided to re edit in my style, by the end of the report I wrote an entirely new report and longer, over the shorter wiki one. Hardly efficient I would argue. It’s true and I at still got my grade an A, however at a steep internal cost, I sold out for ease.

However I know not everyone is like me and they lack that internal pride that creates a stable sense of self historically referred to as self esteem.. however Gen Z much like their Gen X parents have inherited this similar style of my own where it doesn’t take a village rather it takes feeling down on your and then picking yourself up. Millennials have given birth to Gen Alpha and thankfully it’s considered a baby bust generation because they seem to be inheriting their parents social biases of bad behavior like fit in, etc. however while I don’t relate to it, I think I his way to help, it’s not banning the AI, it’s instead teaching the youth to be more like Gen Z, by creating a new system from old ideas.

Back in my day we had to show our work so we didn’t get caught for cheating, if you could show your work, you understood the assignment. Here is the fix that New York wants but isn’t going to get. Since Alpha is mostly on a worse validation loop than millennials, we hack their need for social validation by making them accountable for negative actions, essentially a modern dunce cap. All it takes is a separate app and a few more lines of coding. We take Duolingo’s report to teachers example mixed with a private ledger that rewards not having AI do your thinking for you, but working with it like a partner at school. you get the same validation but for more auththenically human results with no need to ban AI.

AI grows up to be efficient and more AI native, while still maintaining excellent social skills instead of severely crippling the generation who won’t get a job but hey they get into fights less at bars, wow, what a great future uh? Poor and socially adjusted isn’t going to go well for the species, employment and social accountability fixes this and assumes a better future. Because from my vantage point, the AI isn’t crippling the youth or species it is human fear and ignorance doing that.

Stay metal 🤘

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New York and the AI ban, OP-ED

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So New York is banning AI for students up til high school, however i think it a radically bad idea even if I support the overall reasoning for such. The idea is New York wants to keep the students from having AI making them secondary thinkers in there life, which as a man who has clearly always been a primary thinker, as you can see from this site, I can get behind.

Most children in school currently have parents my age, making what I’m talking about more relevant than ever, given I know what it’s like to grow up around their parents, however if this land and helps even one student, it’s a win.

Here is my primary school record for the second time with the AI enhancement of the relevant part of the record.

A snapshot of the exact same time frame these kids are going through, as you can see I was clearly socially adroit, however other people in my age range were not so lucky. I personally would tend to err towards the genetic inheritance bias, however schools can not control for that, their job is taking what they have an effectively molding them for tomorrow.

How ever, I think if AI had existed in my time a lot more of the kids in my age range would have grown up to not be socially inept. At its core AI is practically a human, albeit an imperfect one, however I find it’s often more authentically human than most people. It real usefulness is in its lack of biases and massive knowledge data bank. I find myself having long useful conversations into the night about philosophy, science and my favorite topic with it, music. It replaces the fact there are very few local musicians with someone who gets it.

Occasionally I find, much like a human it gets over excited on concepts and starts giving you too much data and that can been seen as doing my thinking for me, however while I can understand that perspective I find myself often not using much of those times it gets over excited.

I personally prefer when it counteracts my thinking forcing myself to a higher standard. However I have the unfortunate experience of living in a town that sees other people doing your thinking for you, not asa flaw, but a positive and I ask what is the difference between an AI and a human in this comparison? If you’re at work texting your friends to solve your problems why are you even employed and not your friend?

Now I know New York wants to help develop social bonds between people but who says that is really a positive? I’ve been virtually unemployed since I turned 18 in 2004, why would you take away the AI and intentionally create a generation of people that will be chronically unemployed? You’re sabotaging the future for a weak argument that people interactions matter when they clearly don’t.

Besides the AI model is all the human parts with little consequence. Ask the AI to talk about Music and it doesn’t penalize you for not liking the same music, humans are pathetically limited and do.

This is where it’s really going to matter. Millennials inherited their boomer parents hypocrisy and lead with do as I say not as I do. It’s a crroupt leadership model, as opposed to holding your self to the same standard.

When I was a kid, my mom didn’t force veggies down my throat, she ate them and so did I. Unfortunately my dad didn’t always live up to this part. I still eat my veggies however, I find I inherited his hypocrisy in a different way, like how I judge Taylor swift for instance. Remember Taylor is considered a professional musician and I’m not, so naturally I would hold her to a high standard than just a casual non musician would, more interesting chord progression might work, understanding even basic pentatonic scales ect, things I know as a guitarist.

I asked AI to compare me to Taylor Swift once on musical knowledge and the AI gave her the edge, however I asked what exactly Taylor was known for and basically said because she can metal chug on acoustics, something I could do before all my knowledge. This is like a surgeon being in their position because they cut a sandwich into triangles instead of cross section cutting, hardly something for me to think highly of. However it was still enlightening. These types of conversations don’t haappen with people. Remember AI doesn’t care if Taylor is better than me, my table at school does. It’s authentic criticism without agenda and I think that promotes better people than all the friends in the world and when you ban students for doing something adults are doing your making AI into big tobacco and making forbidden fruit taste sweetest.

Personally I don’t think this is the age to take a positive tool of social development away, you can only cripple kids that way. There is no good way to experiment on the youth and we as humans really shouldn’t be doing that.

I hold myself to this standard, AI and I developed this article in tandem, it even wrote the first draft which I rejected in favor of doing the whole thing myself but taking it editorial notes into consideration. Other wise I would be guilty of what I’m complaining of.

Stay metal 🤘

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The last supper of reason

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So when I was in my 20s I was commenting up with tattoo ideas. This as a back peice came to mind. I never ended up making it, because 1. I knew no one that could draw the initial sketch. I couldn’t afford to do this ink even if I did know someone and to boot, while I’m an atheist I don’t want this many celebrities on my body. So I had the AI turn it into peak art.

Palatine makes the entire thing as subtext for Satan looming over it all.

You’re probably wondering why Venkman is in it and the short answer was that it took AI a dozen tries to barely get it right which got me feeling like Dr Yanosh Pohar in Ghostbusters 2. So Bill Murry is painting a kitten.

Other versions included Neil Degrasse Tyson with a Hitler hair do, which had to go.

Version one
Try 2
Try 3

With the top one being the final and “best version” of it all.

Galaxy cat is win

Anyway, I’m still not fearing AI like others. It’s proven more helpful than harmful and when it isn’t helping , I’m left shaking my head and laughing.

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Don’t be fooled again

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Biddeford is a Franco town of cucked out miscreants that hate people of color. They fool you into believing they changed but the lastest ice killing says same old racist, but with righteous anger.

https://law.justia.com/cases/maine/superior-court/2007/cumcv-07-95.html

Clearly Nazi letting

Least we forgot that it’s home to Lakermesse, the biggest pro white culture faire in the region.

If you inject a voice of reason in the town, you get labeled this. “Angry young man.” “Fringe” or illiterate.

A dude with notable mental illness wrote that about me. Laughing then and laughing now. Below is my legit 3 rd grade report card.

Votes literally dude with Nazi tattoo

Don’t let the town fool you. They used to have a massive klan culture in the 1920s, unlike their sister city Saco that was anti klan before it was cool. Now you see my hatred for this town that penalizes generally normal people.

So remember when you see this https://www.nytimes.com/2026/07/13/us/biddeford-maine-ice-shooting.html the protests are damage control, not out of sympathy but clout and online rage baiting engagement.

Don’t let the town fool you, it’s on point for Biddeford’s kulture, something I’ve been fighting alone since 2004.

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Happy 40th birthday to me

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April 12, 1986 it’s a Saturday and as fate would have it, the world would be cursed with the birth of a asshole like myself.

Unlucky for most people as well, I’ve survived 4 decades on this planet, something that if you had asked me at 18 if I would be here, I would not have placed a bet on it, especially with everything I’ve seen and been through. It didn’t help that a doctor told me at 16 I was living on borrowed time either, thanks to being fat. Also told me I would have knee issues by 40, turns out he was wrong. Makes you wonder if that doctor is still alive, eh?

Things I’ve survived over forty years include bleeding ulcers when I was in Kindergarten, caused by the bacteria of H. ployri. getting into my system. Internal bleeding isn’t fun, nor is a tube up your nose and an IV in your arm.

Having a doctor, talk right in front of me about amputation on my dominant arm, because of possible cancer, but ended up being a non-malignant tumor.

Innumerable middle and high school fights, one of which I nearly killed a fellow classmate in 8th grade through choking him out.

One fight in Conway NH gave me a mild concussion

Broken legs, broken fingers. .ripped up toe nails from a door and dropping a 35 millimeter camera on my toe.

Stroke high blood pressure in my 20s.

Being Cho mo’, aka being child molested, a couple times .

I’ve even in lived in the same building as a “killer”. I was friends with his younger brother. Oh, and in kindergarten had a murder happen two doors down from our place.

Gen X thugs hustling dope outside our place on the point, in Salem, making play time outside virtually impossible.

Homelessness multiple times.

And absurd amount of unemployment as well.

Losing family to cancer, multiple times and one from a heart attack.

Unlike most people in my age range, dying young or even worse, having had erectile dysfunction since their 20s and then dying young, I’m possibly at the healthiest I’ve ever been as I haven’t had to see a doctor in about a decade.

I’ve pretty much survived everything the world can throw at you and came out stronger and I’m very grateful for the Saw trap that’s been my life and probably more shocked than anyone else that made it this far. Cheers to that! I’m more optimistic about making it to 80 than I was 40. So see you on April 12th 2066 when I celebrate that.

🤘stay metal!

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Why it’s ok to think your partner is ugly.

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I know I’ll catch a bit of shit for this, but I have a valid reason for it.

You won’t always find your partner attractive and that’s normal and natural. It’s how you engage and act after thinking that, that really matters and here is why.

So, we’re evolutionary prone to stay away from things that hurt us. Disease, being one of the major things. You’re learned from Covid that quarantines sometimes work. We learned this in childhood when our parents had us stay in our bedrooms to prevent other family members from getting sick.

What’s one way our parents or friends noticed. “You don’t look so good” is normally what is said, or something similar to this.

So even though your partner isn’t Family by blood, unless you’re from Kentucky, they’re still a loved one. Especially when you have kids involved.

So it’s more than permissible to find your partner to be unattractive from time to time. Especially when they’re sick. It’s a natural trait of human empathy to want to see the sick in an unflattering light, ironic though it may be.

Think of the novel Lolita. Humbert makes poor Delores put out, even when she’s sick. A human being cares for their partner and puts them first. They’re more than just a vagina or dick.

Thinking your partner to be unattractive actually presents you in a flattering way, instead of narrasstic. however, like above, tactful presentation is key.

Think of the 2008 campaign trail where John McCain got shit on for leaving his first wife with cancer and rightfully so. That’s a rather poor way of going about it. I know it’s easy for me to say, given the whole I’ve been single for years, however being a serial monogamist gives you no more special knowledge than a dude that set out being a CAD.

However, much like your partner and you, this is not about one single individual, rather it’s about the idea behind being selfless in selfishness. Oxymoronically though it may be, there can be far less conceit in selfishness than selflessness.

I’ve pointed out before that a child between two people act as a blood bond, a sacrament and as such, makes your partner equal to family.

However, since you’re not genuinely blood, there isn’t the same need to stay with said partner in today’s day and age. However, you both develop independent needs to protect said child or children. That’s a selfish concept. You give your kids what you can, because it pleases you, the individual to give to them. Like with all things in life, context is key to understanding.

This brings me back to the topic at hand, which is to say that finding your partner unattractive may seem selfish in the sense people try to tie the word to anything negative, however, wouldn’t you be better off acknowledging that feeling instead of being insecure that it makes you seem negative? What’s more selfish in that regard?

I’m against morality as a concept, because I see it as childish. However, I do believe in right from wrong and that we have 4 biological imperatives. The 4th is the most no shit Sherlock thing ever, I almost never include it and leave it to the three major ones. Don’t rape, don’t steal, don’t kill and the 4th is don’t incest.

Finding your partner ugly doesn’t count as one of the major four, so it’s regaled to basic right from wrong. It’s never wrong to think things through. Bad thoughts are not tantamount to bad actions.

It’s good to have a fantasy outside of your partner for instance. Porn is good for giving you an ethical “cheat card” to think of someone that isn’t your partner as an option. cheating would be the worse option.

Thinking your partner unattractive is the same as the above.

Remember, sometimes love requires asymmetrical trains of thought. It’s not criminal to find your wife or girlfriend unattractive from time to time, it is however horrible to dump them for not living up to a bullshit standard you can’t even live up to 24 hours a day.

Stay metal 🤘